Locked in Fear Jail
Here I am standing beside the river. I looked in solitude as I watched the peaceful scenery. This is a perfect moment of reflection and a chance to be alone with nature. Then I was reminded with the saying, Life with a plan is like a river which flows to the sea. No matter what the obstacles, it will meet, it still course towards it's aim- the sea. I relly want to be a nurse someday. That's why I enrolled in nursing. It is the primary means in which I will attain freedom and economic prosperity in the future, an opposite of our situation today. This is not just for myself but also for my family and supporters. Of course, to pay credit for their love and support to reach my goal.
I just came from two days Nursing Students Affiliates orientation at Cotabato Regional and Medical Center, Cotabato City. We will be having our duty there this coming November or December. No wonder. there's no way to put a happy mask this christmas. It will be a darkest moment of my nursing student life, I suppose. Since it's an out base location and we will stay there for six days, I needed more or less ten thousand pesos for transportation, meals and boarding house. Our C.I. for that hospital exposure is very strict. She's like a communist tyrant who annihilate whoever opposed her clinical governance. Discipline, she would say. She is a kind of fear that awakens you in your duty shaking and sweating. So it requires an enormous amount of energy just to keep afloat. She became my C.I. in the classroom setting and I really learned a lot from her and I also proved how really strict she is.
The question still lies in my mind, Is it necessary to be a strict C.I. just to promote discipline and learning? Tsk tsk tsk.. In an article I read, I found out that C.I.s are major contributors to stress. It is not necessary to humiliate the students. IR is enough. Students learned from their lesson. Trauma need not to be part of the punishment. It is humiliating. demeaning and wreaks havoc on morale and confidence. Instructors should positively influence and motivate their students with the credible aura they exhibit. Learning is much more enjoyable and teaching is less of a burden if a harmonious student- CI relationship is established. In doing so, both parties must exert effort to make adjustments in these potentially stressful relationship. Remember: It is better to be respected out of love that to gain it by fear. Respect begets respect. From a purely psychological viewpoint, fear hinders learning and suppresses one's ability to perform to the fullness of his potential.